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Thursday, December 20, 2007
ultimate breakup.
2:59 PM  the ultimate breakup. it left such a great impact. nv once in my life i cried like this. until i dont even have the strength to even move my hands. i nv thot of it like this. i was still reading the past msg you sent to me and found out how much i loved you. Called her, she accompanied me and thus having only 2hours of sleep for the night. wonderful girlfriend, WONGSHUYI. woke up, bathe, steped out of the toilet, find her, ran into her arms and cried my heart out. and she made me feel so impt. As i cried and talked to you last night, she stood outside my door and felt so helpless. she didnt know what to say or what to do. And she went back to her room and cried silently along with me. We stood in the kitchen hugging each other as we were crying. & fcuk that man. i love my dearest MOTHER so damn much. thanks for keeping to your promise. i thot you wont even bother anymore. and thanks, you allowed my r/s with my mother to take a great step forward. how i felt when i told her about us. how i cried in her arms. i havent hugged her in a long long long time. i never cried in her arms. you changed my life so much. you taught me what love was. you taught me and showed me how wonderfull love can be, at the same time, you showed me how sucky love can be. you took 5months to earn my trust back. you made me believe in forever. you made me believe in - you. Dist too far, meeting very little, have another girl, blah. it's all excuse. It's all just because you lost faith in the r/s. You claim you have another girl, and i still choose to believe that you dont. All because I believe so much, in you. All those nights we have talking on the phone, have all ended. I wouldnt allow myself to sleep first cause i want to hear you breathing. and i could even smile to myself while listening to your breathing. I can no longer call you 'Dear' or tell you how much i love you. I wont be spending my Christmas with you. I wont be spending 30th with you. Thanks for all you've done. and, i dont need anymore 'sorry'. Leaving you, is the very last thing i want to ever do. wo bu xiang zai shi qu ni i only want you by my side now you my everything now will be forever i wan to treat eu better den e past n better den ni treat me ty for giving me tis final chance to make me realise eu r still e best to me no matter how i treated you die die also onli want eu be wid me forever i truly love eu deeply right from the btm of my hart Eu r mine forever my one n onli dear Dear i cnt afford to lose eu ........ i only wan eu to b happy n feel love from me onli :) you're making me feel the total opposite. You once asked me if i have faith in the r/s, and now you lost faith yourself. ♥ 就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
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