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25th Oct 2013 Went over to sy's bro's place at...

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Grey's Anatomy S10E3

A Change of Heart ep 17

"To love at all is to be vulnerable"

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at least nobody criied tuuday!
pon cca. damn lim chai huat was dumb enuff to believe muii excuse.
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ii miissh miissh miissh miissh miissh hiim. ii wan hiim tuu come back. ii regret doing wad ii did that made miie lose hiim. ii hate muii liife.

muii dear dawwn hugged miie and criied on muii shoulder. ii wiish ii culd tear wiif her. but ii gotta be her strength. cos she realli has no strength to complete the race lerrhs. i'll be her strength. i'll be her support. i'll be dere for her. no matter wad..

fwens, ii lurrve u all. thanks ferr beiing weneva ii niid euu. esp YINGJING. muii angel.

there's 1 person, a long lost fwen. he found miie back. ii went the extra mile to briing hiim to the hse ob God. he became muii 1st fruiit. now he's down. these 4mths, he's been iin the hse ob God. now he wanna walk out. i'm norrt gonna let that happen.

Dear Father,
ii wanna pray for muii dear fwen here.
he's been wiif miie iin muii up and downs for the past 4mths.
wen i'm happi or wen i'm heartbr0kenn, he's alwayys dere.
Dear Father,
ii pray that y0u'll be his strength for now.
he's feeling down.
Dear Father,
gib hiim the strength to continue his walk wiif u.
Let hiim not backslide.
ii pray tiis iin yr name.
amen.

k0r. i'll not let tiis relationshiip be like the past. wen ii see u online ii dun do anytiing. ii'm norrt gonna let iit happen. ii still want tiings to be like the past 4mths. like 2006 countdown niite. where the 6 ob us hab loads ob fun. where we were so close.

i'm willing to gib up the rest ob muii liife just ferr that niite..

ii walked the same route ii walk everydayy. den ii tot : whiie am ii walkiing alone here. whiie are you norrt here to accpmpany miie back agn like u did the last 2 tiimes. WHIIE DID U HURRT MIIE SO MUCH??
conference wiif dawwn and potatola0po just now. all 3 ob us are realli hurrt man. each ob us has diff storiies but same prob. THOSE FREAK ASS GUYYS HURRT US AGN AND AGN. dawwn saiid sometiing whiich ii tiink br0ke muii heart agn. she made miie realise that lying tuu muiiself iish stupiid. she said '' Steven wiil not come back tuu miie. WX will not go back to shuni and CY will not go back to Sylviia. '' haiish.. i'm so lost..

cosh ii niid euu here and ii cant bear the fact that ii've lost euu..

todayy realli heartbreaks and smiiles. after skool, i saw Dawwn br0kedown. she was realli crying. not tearing. CRYING. ii saw and teared. i tot ob hiim. Dawwn was realli heartbrokenn. soon after tearing, ii criied for awhile den tearing agn. den iit was Yingjiing and Xiinyi 's turn to tear. Dawwn was realli realli sad and agitated. she was searching for ppl's nametag to cut herself. went to the toiilet to let her cool down. she almost broke the mirror. Jessica and Yingjing shouted at herr. ii just stood dere tiinkiing abt hiim. ii den realised, ii realli lost hiim lerrhs. all thiis waiitiing, all thiis dreams, iit's just miie deceiving muiiself. but ii rather deceive muiiself. ii cant take the paiinful truth. cos, ii still love you. ii still love you. ii realli realli do.

Saw Jiajun and pizza hut todayy. went dere to eat. den we msg. iit was damn farnii lorrhs. hahas. den we all started luffing lerrhs and 4got abt wad happened b4. hahas.

sat][_*
went Wenjun's hse agn. reunited agn. hahas. watch FinalDestination. missed last train and last bus. bo biian. take cab. lol.
sundayy][_*
went to Swiss Cottage CO niite. lol. nwiice~ saw Eileen playiing her dizi. hahas. GOSH. glad tuu be iin yangqiin man. i'll traiin hard to play that well!

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iim still waiitiing ferr you to come back.

ii admiit that i'm stupid.
i'm silly.
i'm dumb.
to still be tiinkiing ob euu now.
to still be cryyinng almost everyniite tiinkiing abt u.
to still be hurrt by euu..

BABY 你就是我的唯一
兩個世界都變心
回去談何容易
確定
你就是我的唯一
獨自對著電話說我愛你
我真的愛你
BABY 我已不能多愛你一些
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你不在 当我最需要爱
你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难捱
你不在 高兴还是悲哀
你都不在 我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在
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再说我爱你
可能雨也不会停
黑色毛衣
藏在那里
就让回忆永远停在那里

the cuts will leave scars..
on hand and in the heart,,

u claimed that u noe you've hurrt miie.
but the questiion ish :
do u noe how much you've hurrt miie..
u saiid u noe you've done wrong.
i'm glad that u noe.
cos u've done sometiing unnessary that've hurrt miie..

i opened a conversation agn after a wk has passed.
waiitiing ferr u tuu sayy sometiing each tiime,
it's like a dream come true..


ii ediit derrhs!

oriiginall derrhs.


*blogger s0t. cant uploads lerrhs. upload more tomorrow!! =))

170306][_*
went escape ydayy wiif daffy, zhuona, qiin aii derrh, yiwen, ming kiet(shuld be like that spell bahs..), chuan yong and sichao. lol. it was damn damn fun. 0k larrhs. went haunted hse 2 tiimes. 1st tiime i kept shouting ferr no reason. got anytiing shout. nth oso shout. scared shout. not scared oso shout. den finally went out. den took some riides. after that, go haunted hse agn. den insiide got ppl stayy dere. lol. still got 1 look look at mirror man. lol. steady. den went makan at orange julius/ burgur kiing. lol. SUN BURN LERRHS!! paiin lehs!! OUCH~~

cg meet was at home tuudayy! =))

i cut muiiself agn.
you left scares on miie..

went to piiano lesson, den track, den lot1, den home, den westmall. yawwns. spent LOADS ob money just now at westmall. hahas. haiiyo. totally tiired out larrhs. tomorrow still going escape.
ohya. i 4got to comment abt muii deariie yuyang. how can he be out lorrhs!! *faiints* omg. i actually teared lorrhs. sobs. muii dear yiyuan out. den deariie yuyang. siians~

i waiited the whole niite.
i din close the conversatiion.
hoping u wuld say anytiing.
anytiing at all.
but,
i stared and stared.
nth happened.
perhaps,
i'm just holding onto a dream wiich will nv come true..

kaiiyiinjiie came over and stayed overniite here. 0k larrhs. short stay. diin realli do anytiing much. miie and mama bake cake just now. our 1st tiime ehs! success~~ lol. =)) friidayy cg ish at home! yeah! den gorrt the test on the 20 verses tiingy. lol. studyy tiime . . . =))

he's online now.
i opened a conversation,
hoping he wuld sayy sometiing.
even as a fwen.
just a siimple 'hi'
whuld make miie high.
too bad it's just seldom that miracles do happen.
i wiish he wuld noe that i'm still waiitiing.
i wanna 4get,
yet i wanna waiit. . .




WE REUNITED!!! wahahahaha!~ 110306. although he was the onlii wan hu wasnt dere, but i dun care!! i tiink if he was dere, it wuldnt be verii niice lerrhs. 6 ob us ish too much ferr now. f i i v e ish just niice. ferr now.
Donovan ; kaiiyiin ; Riichard ; sylviia ; wenjun. =))

went to east coast todayy after make-up svc. e168 and n337 derrh outiing. muii grp most relaxed derrhs. almost did nth like that. kaiiyiin kelian lerrhs. lols. took the us from dere to jurong east interchange. more den 1.5hrs lorrhs. i slept in the bus. onlii had 2.5hrs ob sleep ydayy. hahas. kaiiyiin comiing over tomorrow i guess. if our plan ish being carried our lorrhs.

giifts from God.
to make miie smiile.
these few dayys,
he blessed miie wiif alorrt ob tiings tuu make miie smiile.
but,
i'm norrt helping by still tiinkiing ob hiim
and
norrt able tuu let hiim go...

mayb i'm stupiid.
mayb i'm blind.
to still be holding on to you.
God gave miie this wonderful gift.
it's called MEMORIIES.
and i thank you for doing God's work.

i miish 2006 countdown niite.

2005 sec 1 10x200
we got a bronze.

2006 sec2 10x200
we got a siilver.

2007 sec3 10x200
we aiim ferr a gold.

there's no 'I' in TEAMWORK.

and i still lurrve you. and i'll still waiit. just ferr you.

went tuu campussuperstar studiio ydayy. muii dear yiiyuan out!! arrgh.. but i still got muii deariie yuyang!! hahs. i love love love dem two!

haiish. you left miie. here. alone.
sleepless niites i hab.
cuts on muii hands that left scares ish nth.
the cut u left on muii heart ish MORE den tiis.
you've hurrt miie and u dun even noe..
shuld i hate u ferr tiis?..
mayb i shuld.
but i love u too much to hate u..

35dayys. i've been tiinkiing abt u. 35dayys. i lost muii love to someone new.

i've lost muii love.

i've lost you...

on our last dayy we chat, the last msg u sent to miie was 'msg u later. i promise.' but that promise nv came. we din even end our conversation. or mayb we ended it, but it din hab an ending..

i'm sowwie. i diin noe that u care for miie verii much untiil u left miie. i onli knew how to l0ve after u have left...

i realli want u to noe all those i did for u. i realli want u tuu noe wad i did for u.

i realli realli lurrve euu alorrt...



the old sylviia died peacefully the moment he left.

i driive muiiself crazy tiinkiing ob euu..

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Sylvia
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