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25th Oct 2013 Went over to sy's bro's place at...

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Grey's Anatomy S10E3

A Change of Heart ep 17

"To love at all is to be vulnerable"

ii gorrt 34th iin class! there're 37 ppl iin muii class. how cool ish that man. suks. BLEAHS.

miie and kaiiyiinJIE talked on the fone for amost 5hrs last niite! till 4am! wahahahas. ii missh the old dayys wen miie, her, duckiiekor and riichard were to conference togetherr.. haiish. but, ii tiink ii'll nv habb the chance to conference wiif dem agn..

311205 - ii met you iin church
240106- ii lost u iin church
130506- u started yr storyy wiif her. wen ii was iin church.
ii culd habb started muii story too wiif someoneelse on that same dayy. but ii chose not too. ii cant. whiie?
COSH II LURRVE YOU.


friidayy was the last dayy obb skool! =))
sat went ferr svc. b4 that went JP to meet someone hu realli brightened up kaiiyiin's dayy. =))
brought Ivan dii and hongping to svc. tw0 babiies =))
sunndayy went suntec book fair. bought loads obb tiings.
online and guess wad --
he started his journeyy wiif herr
he calls her baby
she means alorrt to hiim
HE LOVES HERR.

how can the fcuking hell can u call herr baby.
I HATE U.
how cann u do tiis to miie. u totally killed miie.
ppl even called miie stupiid ferr loving you.
call miie stupiid ferr holding on.
angryy wiif miie ferr loving u.
but, WTHF.
ii cant stop loving you.

PS: ppl at muii tag board. please. iif u dun like miie FCUK ORFF. u dun even noe miie. DUN GIIB YR COMMENTS. and, either you're a fwen hu noes the pass or you're some idiot hacking iinto muii blog wen u hate miie. and, pls dun use others name. u giib yr comments den use yr own name. or, you're ashamed obb yr own bloody name.

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ii suk at iit larrhs.

u killed miie. totally.


YES. iim a princess. muii father ish the KING obb KINGS. =))

well, tuudayy diin go skool. our off. hahas. slept till 3pm. iif kaiiyiinjiie diin call miie, ii wuldnt wake up at all lorrhs. hahas. mapled wiif Eileen. she verii suaku lehs! hahas. verii farni lorrhs. she too ji dong liaos. hahas. ya lorrhs. ohsya! ii 4got to mention, muii class gorrt the highest iin NAFA results ehs! 93.7% passed. onli 1 fail! hahas. 2/5 rawwks!
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ii finally see u online. ii opened the window. stared at yr msn niick. u used to sayy those 3words to miie. but now, it's ferr her. ii hoped you wuld sayy a hii. but, no. haiish. it'll nv be like the past lerrhs.. ILU . that's whiie ii gorrt muii heart all shattered.


Fearing the battle was over
And I'd already lost the war,
I was tired of trying and failing.
I just couldn't fight anymore.
So, dragging my battle-scarred body,
I crawled to the foot of the cross.
And I sobbed. 'Oh please, Father forgive me.But, I tried ... I tried ... and still lost.'
Then, the air grew silent around me.
I heard His voice just as clear as the dawn:'Oh, My child, though you are tired and weary,You can't stop, you have to go on.'
At the foot of the Cross, where I met Him,At the foot of the Cross, where He died,I felt love, as I knelt in His presence.
I felt hope, as I looked in His eyes.
Then, He gathered me lovingly to Him,As around us God's light clearly shone.
And, together ,we walked though my lifetime
To heal every wound I had known.
I found bits of my dreams, long forgotten
And pieces of my life on the floor.
But, I watched as He tenderly blessed them,
And my life was worth living once more.
I knew, then, why I had been losing.
I knew why I had not grown.
At the foot of the Cross came the answer:I'd been fighting the battle alone .At the foot of the Cross, where I met Him,
At the foot of the Cross, where He died,
Then, I knew I could face any challenge
Together - just my Lord and I.

ii went to JP wiif mama after CO tuudayy. den ate and crystal jade or jade crystal or wadsoeva it is called. den shopped ard. hahas. iit's holidayy ferr miie 2molo! hahas. be jealous~ kekex.
GUESS WADD. muii historyy cum eng assignment. DA VINCI CODE. how cool can that be man?! best assignment ii hab iin muii entire liife. hahas~

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fotos ii pr0mised u guyys.


we're MARRIED to EACH OTHER. =))

it isnt beautifully takenn! dii. take agn the NEXT time!

LOLS.

mayb iif muii heart wuld stop beating.
denn it wuldnt hurrt so much.

tuudayy arhs. ii tiink arhs. lazyy to ediit foto. shho 2molo den blog the fotos. hahas. well, ii and daffy gorrt married today. ii la0gong she laopopo. hahas. denn went JP walked ard. noticed MANI tiings dat ish niice~ hahas. den went church. Jurong derrhs. for PM. ii tiink. after that we had the cheers. diff cluster diff cheer lorrhs. denn went KFC besiide church. broCK left 1st cosh he had leaders meeting. poor tiing. no eat nehhs. still fast whole dayy lehs. den Jonliim asked us wann go JP the KFC fiind howe marrhs. den we sayy 0k lorrhs. iin the bus somebodyy said we verii united lehs! hahas. wee~ happi happi. den break fast lorrhs. den fellowship. kaiiyiinjiie, Gorden, parry and muiiself left 1st. the rest went arcade. Dagege gorrt come muii blog wan lehs. lucky ii no take piic obb the present. hahas. anw, *waves to dagege*. on the way back, we 4 sat down. den after Gorden left, there was an empty seat. den 1 woman ard her 50s bahs. wanted to seat derrhs. den another woman, ard her age, pushed her and sat beside lorrhs. ii see lerrh ii just diiao dat woman lorrhs! besiide miie summore. kbkb. no matters. bleahs. den ii gave up muii seat to the other woman. OMG. ii felt shho fcukingly guud lorrhs. ii felt overjoyed. =))
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CY. ii miissh u. ii'll waiit for u to come back. i'll be waiitiing riite here. you'll nv be replaced iin muii heart. ILU .

ydayy ii was just looking through the church book. erms. copy notes all that derrhs. den ii diin hab the intention to fiind the Deja Vu sermon. cosh ii tot that iit was impossible to fiind iit lerrhs. den look through. den that tiime ii missed 1 tabernacle bs due to the trip ii had to Korea. ii watched iit online. copied the notes into the book. den ydayy ii took the tabernacle book to copy the ans iin. den ii fliped open the tabernacle book. and guess wad.. the Deju Vu sermon was iinsiide!! ii lurrve muii abah father loads and loads!! iit was the dayy THEY came. well, hiim as well. all brothers marrhs. Deja Vu- Glimpse obb eternity. den whiie din ii see iit coming? whiie diin ii see that u were going to leave? haiish. iit was the 2nd and last tiime u sent miie back home. haiish. ii diin see iit coming!! ii found the CNY sermon. ii found Deju Vu sermon. both by accident. iit must be from God. muii abah father. iim able to fiind back the love that ii lost. by accident too. i guess. anw, ii habb faiith and i'll fiind iit back!!


i'll fiind back wadd ii lost~

PS: dagege. ii bought yr biirthdayy present lerrhs! hahas.

siians. ydayy Riichard ask miie 4get hiim. crazyy. can den ii oso wann. like ii wanna be sadd like that. ii oso wanna be happi. bleahs. tuudayy went ferr power hse(or wadeva that iish called) and cg meeting at sister sher's place. den went downn to NTU ferr captiian's ball. after that ii went tuu Gombak stadiium and just choing lorrhs. bleahs. haiish. siian norrhs. denn came home. orhs orhs. den kaiiyiinjiie called miie. den talk awhiile. den online lerrhs lorrhs. haiish. tuudayy whole dayy just sadd. ii dunno whiie lorrhs. den wen praying that tiime iin sistersher's place, tears just came outta muii eyes just like that lorrhs. bleahs! siians.
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ii missh you. ii lurrve you. please just let miie noe that you're happi wiif herr. at least let miie noe that you're happi..

ii guess the next tiime ii see u agn, ish wen ii see u agn..

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went to skool tuuday. iit was supposed to be a holidayy. but the skool go help us dunno put wad useless and boring talk. bleahs. den go home sleep awhile. den went out meet kaiiyiinjiie norrhs. den went orchard derrhs. den too manii memoriies den dun wan stayy dere lerrhs. went esplanade. den we were sitting dere talking. den gorrt this grp ob body builders ppl. come for dunno wadd derrhs. diff countriies from asia. den take foto wiif us. wahs. shocked man. wahslaos. den ish like shho manii obb dem surround miie and kaiiyiinjie. wahslaos. hahas. den after they went lerrhs den miie and kaiiyiinjiie go siit another place. den dere norrt shho mani ppl. den talk talk talk.. den tears came outta muii eyes. haiish. nvm. as long as he's happi. ii can do anytiing ferr hiim. but ii cant briing that smile which that gurrl can bring to hiim..


daffy proposed tuu miie! hahas.

yea! smiile, u biitch.

hahas. during the talk. ii was hungryy. den daffy wrote that iin blue ink.

art?

ii just cant let you go..

even iif u and herr are realli happi now,
please dun avoid miie.
at least lemme noe you're happi wiif herr..

Get a new life u biitch.

hahas. daffy drew iit wors. hahas.

II LURRVE MUII MUMMY LOADS LOADS LOADS !!

ii criied after skool. ii ren nehs. ii ren until skool endd. den just cryy. no mood. so just took a taxii home. iin the taxii, cant control the tears. haben get iinto the liift den start cryying liaos. wahslaos. haiish. ii dun even habb the mood to eat. no lunch no diinner. i'll just starve to death before yr eyes. be guilty!




MDM GOII RAWWKS ~! please. hahas. she chose our class to go Science centre. actually it isnt that go science centre guud. ish that she likes us~! hahas. was ass tiired tuudayy. slept onli 3.5hrs last niite. energy level was low low low. hahas.


muii life was suddenly divided into before and after. and there was no going back to before. but den ii realised ii had a choice to live the AFTER. ii had to decide.

and ii found out that, ii want/niid you. ii triied to tiink abt miie realli losing you. and, muii heartt hurrts hurrts hurrts! ii cant lose you, baby. ii niid u here boii. please come back..

I NV CRIED SO MUCH IIN MUII LIFE B4 LORRHS. ii criied 1 whole hr ydayy just becosh ob YOU. ii criied till muii lips turned PALE. do u care? NO. ii triied to let you go. but, tiinkiing that you're gone 4eva, muii heart HURRTS LOADS.

there's SO MANI reason whiie ii shuldnt cryy over you. but there's just 1 siimple reason that made miie cryy. I LOVE YOU. love has no logiic. at all.



I dunno how hard iit wuld be to sayy guudbye. Yet, it was harder still, wen ii refused to sayy iit.

on satt N337 went Raffles Town Club play bowling. hahas. ii diin play. was 'shooting dinosaurs' wiif Cedriic. hahas. went tuu eat supper wiif mama after dat. hahas. den someone broke a news to miie lorrhs..

tuudayy met that someone. haiish. he remiinds miie ob YOU. haiish.
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now that you've found yrself a new gurrl, shuld ii be letting go? ii wanna let go too. but ii cant. it's not that ii dun wan. ii've tried. but, ii cant. iit hurrts. iit realli does. ii lost a part ob muii wen ii lost you. now, you've found someoneelse, ii lost muii whole self.. haiish. just promiise miie that you'll be happi.. and i'll lead muii liife wo you happily.

ii met u iin the hse obb the Lord.
ii lost you iin the hse obb the Lord.
now, iim waiting for u iin the hse obb the Lord.

friidayy - MT paper 1 and 2
mondayy - History ;; EL paper 1 ;; MT (LC)
tuesdayy - science ;; EL paper 2
wed - Geog ;; Maths paper 1 and 2
monday - Art ;; DnT

2 more papers and im free! wahahaha. holidayys, here ii come! 25th may ish our off dayy. kekex. due to the polling tiing. they shuld hab more ob tiis kinda stuff niia. hahas.

hahas. last sundayy after ****** lesson, mama fetch miie from lot1. den shopped ard lot 1. den she told miie she saw sometiing touching while waiting for miie. she said she saw 3 paiikiia talking talking. den gorrt 1 blind woman cant fiind the entrance cosh alorrt ppl. so the paiikiia go help. den while telling miie, she criied. haiiyo. see. paiikiia are guud ppl lorrhs. onli u dunno dem onli. DUN JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER. hahas.
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waiitiing ish tiring. iim falling.

hahas. cellgrp like becoming beta lerrh wors. hahas. more united. hahas. guud lorrhs. tuudayy after the GS quiz we went to fiind dem. den play tititiu. den ii lost. den 4feet. taoyan norrhs~ ask miie take the broom from sweeper den sweep. lalalas. 0k larrhs. muii whole miind norrt working well tuudayy. shho ii oso gorrt no feeling. ii just tot ob hiim lorrhs. haiish. siian norrhs.
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CY. ii mean iit. ii realli do. ii lurrve you.

lol. ppl, iif you're wondering whiie iim norrt online, it's becos iim habing the exams~! MYE. lol. tuudayy 1st paper. mt paper 1 and 2. oh ya. ii gorrt tamagotchii 2dayys ago. tuudayy qiinaiiderrh brought hers den we play. ass farnii. hahas. thiis yr MYE ish iin the hall lehs. we brought all our tables and chair tuu the hall. ii found muii table. but cant fiind muii chair! szeming using muii table siia. siians. dunno iif ii can ever get iit back. iif iin muii own class den ez. iif end up iin other class den.. SOBS. W.D.K.R.S and CY and blahs. haiish. siians. chair oso. W.D.K.R.S . lalalas. 0k larrhs. hope ii can get iit back. oh yarrhs! ii got testiimony to share!! LOLS. ii lurrve God! God ish guud all the tiime! kekes. yea lorrhs. mondayy ish history, eng and MT (LC). siians. SO MANII LEHS. ii haben study anytiing yet. geog ish - DEAD. no niid see. sure fail. 100% + chop. wad hab the teacher taught siince start ob the year. ii tell u wan? HIS BOOKS. HIS TEACHING CAREER. BLEAHS. it's NONSENSE. hahas. haiiya. nvm larrhs. by God's grace. hahas.
anw, tuudayy celebrated WEIWEI's biirthdayy after skool. went outsiide mac. siing her song. den shho manii extras come siing. bleahs. den ii sayy dem. hahas. EXTRA. den we ate cake. and suddenly, iit became THROWING cake. miie and qiinaiiderrh went chasing Dawwn, xiinyii and shuyii all the wayy to YEWTEE. lol. farnii lorrhs. hahas. =))

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101dayys siince you've been gone. iim holding on. nv letting go.

iim breaking down. i've already broke down. arhs! tuudayy, ii felt that ii still lurrve you alorrt!

I STILL LURRVE YOU AND I'LL WAIT FERR YR RETURN.

slept at 6+am ydayy studying norrhs. feel so tiired now wors. hahas. ii felt lost agn tiis evening. a show was like trying to pass miie a msg. dreams are just pretend. they're norrt real. but iif dreams are ferreva, den iit becomes real. so, iif ii can be iin muii dream 4eva, iim willing.

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ii felt lost once agn tuudayy. ii tot ob u agn. tears just formed. how ii wiish you were here by muii siide and hab nv left miie..
121dayys siince the st0ry started. 97dayys siince iit ended.


SYL -* misses that niite loads.

MEMORIIES means alorrt tuu miie,,

while waiting ferr mama to piick miie up tiis afternoon after piiano, ii tot ob hiim agn. DUN LEAVE MIIE ALONE PPL. so ii wun be able to tiink abt hiim larrhs. haiis. den went hm. sleep. went lesson. bought assesments. blahs. home. and on and on. den went climbing down and up the stairs wiif mama and muii dear baobeii. hahas. so farnii mans. den halfwayy baobeii cant anymore. so ii carry her 3floors. den ii oso cannot tahan liaos. let her go up herself. 16floors lehs. up and down. so, tiimes 2. hahas. ya lorrhs.
muii hse here gonna renovate lehs! siians. the road where he walked wiif miie twiice before.. haiish. ish God trying to ask miie to let go and just 4get abt those memoriies..?

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haiish. ii tot abt u agn. whiie did u hab to do tiis man. whiie did u hab to break muii heart. u hab no riites lehs!! haiish. siians. haiish. ii realli want u back. ii niid you. haiish. iim sowwiie ferr wad ii did last tiime. iim sowwie ferr hurting you. u shuld now how ii feel. cosh ii hurrt u b4. now you're hurrting miie. ii cant blame u. iii cant blame anyone but muiiself. haiish. ii just want u back. come back baby. ii niid you. please dun let the story end at 240106. yr ''later'' haben arriived yet. iim still waiitiing ferr iit to arriive. baby, come back. come back to miie..

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Sylvia
It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.-Tennyson

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