OUR DARK KNIGHT

Fading Polaroids

I lead a boring life

25th Oct 2013 Went over to sy's bro's place at...

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Grey's Anatomy S10E3

A Change of Heart ep 17

"To love at all is to be vulnerable"

Cattttttttttttt.


Imma happy girl today! :D
We finally met.......aft almost 3weeks.
Baby made me quiteeeeeeeeeeee pissed at first. Cause he couldnt wake up when I reached, and i waited downstairs for 30mins, called him till my phone got super hoooooot.
Went up awhile aft that, then went to meet his friend and headed to Cine's E2max to kiap soft toysssssss. Hahahaa. I nv believed in those kinda machine until baby showed me it was possible to kiap. And he can get it in 2 tries. Not bad! Got 5 in the end. And i had to carry it in my arms in the MRT. hahaha. Went to Rocher aft that cause baby wanted to eat beancurddddddd. They sent me to AMK stn aft that to meet ah duck to get my stuffs that potato gave me :D thanks potato!

& thanks babyyyyyyyy!


hehheh, my new babiesssssssssssss.



Just received a call from baby.....& he cant meet me tmr :(
disappointed.


Did you all switch off the lights just now for that hour? :D

Mr Loke,



Should I bring a duffel bag or a bagpack for camp?!

Duffel bag is more convinient compared to a bagpack but looks so........ :/
& vice versa.

SO HOW?


& Shuyi may have chicken poxxxxxxxxxx. WAHLAOOOOOOOO EHHHHHHHHHHH.
She's on the way to the doc now, shall wait for the result.
Edited: Shiat. She has chicken pox. zzzzzzzzz

I had my chickenpox when I was 3years oldddddd :D













Tuesday to SP for SPSU camp briefing. Shait, a bit lazy for camp alrdy...
Someone gave me a i-know-her look the moment i joined the group & intro myself....and she came up to me aft that and asked me if I know ChunFeng. Lol. Cooooooooool.
I haven found anybody from my course....
Then to Parklane for pool and PS for arcade w IT Fair friends....so long since i stepped into an arcade. lol.



Went to CCKSS to get my O level cert yday. hehhehheh.
Then to recruit express. & then home. Potato and boyfee came over for stayover :D
Watched Wild Child and Boogey Man 2. I'm gonna have nightmare for nights....



They super funny sia. Sit at the window and watched the outside like TV. HAHAHA



Went to Just Education ard my place to try our luck getting a job there today. Haha.
& Shuyi spotted this....




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Flies having sex -.- wth.
They didnt even care when i went near to take a photo.


byebye.

I slept at 6.15am and woke up at 5pm.

Wth is wrong w me?!?

I really neeeeeeeed more money.



On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.

When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.

This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.

From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.

Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.

Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.

The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out.

He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.

Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

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If a girl cries in front of
you, it means that she couldn't take it
anymore.

If you take her hand, she would stay
with you for the rest of your life; if
you let her go, she couldn't go back
to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily, Except in
front of the person who she love the
most, she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily, only when she
loves you the most, she put down her
ego.

If a girl cries because of you
please hold her hands firmly, she's
the one who would stay with you for
the rest of your life.

If a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up, maybe because of
your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of you,
when she cry because of you, Look into
her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n
hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried with pure
sincerity, Infront of you, And because of
you?


She cry not because she is weak, She
cry not becasue she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry, Because crying silently is no
longer possible, the pain, hurt, n
agony have become too big a burden to
be kept inside...


If a girl cry her heart out to you, And
all because of you, Its time to look
back on what you have done, Only you will
know the answer to it.

Do consider it. Cause one day....

It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

Dont do this to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your
life. Maybe in your life, she's the
only one that loves you the most.

I re-read my blog posts for the past 2hours.
Haha, I laughed like crazy at some posts, teared at some, missed the past so much.

& now, idk how to explain how I feel. Haha, undescribable feelings.













JP w potato just now. Haha, just for a short while. & i must say, she is v punctual.

I haven seen mummy for 2days. haha.
She leaves the house for MJ when i'm sleeping and is sleeping when i leave the house and is out agn when i come back -.-


She alighted at Gombak w me just for photo taking. Haha.

I complained like crazy about my hair and me heels when i'm w her. Haha.

We ate KFC, ohman. Such a sin.


We saw this guy. Haha, whatever his name is.
I only know that his girlfriend is Michelle.

& we saw a girl from CSS `09 too.

haha, i need want more $$$.
Who dont?

haha, i sleepy. OPI in JP is $21.90, not $11.90. Shiat.

I emo. Byebyeeeeeeeee~ :D

Let me start my entry like this (okay, not exactly cause I typed this at the start alrdy) :

FCUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

I had a haircut yday and.................fcuk. OMGosh. My hair damn thin, agn.
My fringe, is gone. Wahlao!

& this morning, Shuyi called me super early and wanted to highlight her hair. So she came over. And the person psychoed me to cut, agn. So i let him, since he worked in Fareast and Bugis bfr...
&, i think, aiyah. My hair is hopeless now :( Make it growwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Outing w them yday :)



Look at my hairrrrrrrrrrrr.
Shuyi kept patting me and going 'so cute!~~~'
-.-

Bought hairband immediately!





My bank account is drying up~~~

Happy 17th Birthday Jacq and Annabelle!! :D


"If you dont trust anyone, put your faith on me."
-一切完美



How can humans even do stuffs like this. Wth.







Those arent humans. They're monsters.
May karma befall them. Anw, it took place in Korea.

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Photoscape can do the GIF so easily -.- wth.

Ah, I got my ibank and I immediately used it like mad today.
Control Sylvia, control.

"Forgive, but never forget" -
Never forget the lesson that mistake has taught you...



"A man can make a million mistakes, as long as he doesn't the same mistake a million times."



ah, baby, you see?

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I tell you. Now I really understand the meaning of 脚酸. I really felt my legs breaking.
Try standing for 12hours a day for 4days. My legs hurts so much even when i'm on the bed getting ready to sleep. So badly that i couldnt sleep!! Applied medicated oil and it works like holy water. Didnt know it has such great power. Anw, now that the show is over, I CAN FINALLY COMPLAIN!!!!!

I tell you, KAOYAP SUCKS. Like, wtf is that lor!
I got posted to an ulu booth. I even quarrelled w someone from there on the 3rd day cause of our meals. Our reseller was supposed to provide our meals. So, no matter what we do w it, they should still provide right?! On the 3rd day, my lunch got eaten up by somebody else. So i waited for dinner. But bfr dinner, she(a girl lah...) replaced my lunch w someone else's. I didnt want it and she said she wouldnt order my dinner. Then she really nv order -.- & i think she told seagate and they provided food which was wayyyyyyyy better than their's on the 4th day. We were the envy of others. HAHAHA. Bloody bitch. & their system really suck sia. Stocks are terribly miserable. Aiyah, if you ever work in IT show, pray hard you dont work under KAOYAP.

Why I nv work at main booth....................................................fuck.




Loveeee.





To enrolment on the 11th.

I saw the lappy I bought at school at the ITfair. I bought mine for $1100 cheaper. HAHA.


This explains the heavy makeup for enrolment.

Bfr work on the 13th. Friday the 13th.



Bfr work on the last day of the fair.



So heartwarming hor. HAHA




My products.
I was doing business via MMS. LOL.
& the person bought 500GB one.
Haha, person is no other than my dear baby! :D

Saw Hongping, Jason, Zhengwen and Annsoon. Lol, no. They saw me first.


fcuking small booth.

IT Fair, 6th floor booth 6111.
Selling Seagate external hardware
Prices are slashing agn tmr
Can backup your whole OS oso lor!! Cool not?
Can encrypt and sync toooooo.
5years warranty.

So, come find me okay?!? Hahahaha.
Come on Sunday lah, think prices will slash moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee. heh heh heh



Baby says he's gonna find me on Sunday but I rly dont want him to waste a trip down cause I think i'd be super busy. Haha. Lovelove.

Enrolment yday.
Completed in only 25mins(?).
Joined one camp w my girls :D



It feels good that we haven quarrelled for 1.5weeks :)
I hope it lasts :)



Wtf man, Yijin.

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Hello.




Sylvia
It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.-Tennyson

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